One morning, I opened my eyes
And wished that I was dead
I wish someone killed me
In this noisy silence
I live to understand the world
But the world didn’t once understand me, why
No, the other half is missing*
It’s trying to hurt me
I miss me miss me baby
I miss me miss me baby
I wish me I wish me baby
Wish I could choose me
Why is it that I’m being so earnest
Yet it’s not working out
Always
Always
Always
Always
Always (I lost my all ways)
Always (I lost my all ways)
Always (I lost my all ways)
Always (I lost my all ways)
If I ever meet God, I would tell him this
That life is coffee that I never ordered
I would grab him by the collar and tell him
Death is an americano you can’t refill
Are you sure that you’re alive
Then, let’s prove it somehow
When I exhale, there’s breath**
On the window, there’s condensation
You are dead
You are dad, but you are dead
Dead dad you don’t listen to me
Dad please listen to me
Why is it that I’m being so earnest
Yet it’s not working out
Always
Always
Always
Always
Always (I lost my all ways)
Always (I lost my all ways)
Always (I lost my all ways)
Always (I lost my all ways)
(T/N: * The effort from the world is the half that is missing
** When breath is visible in the cold.)
source: bangtan soundcloud; trans by Jessie @ bts-trans 1, 2
I'm surprised this wasn't posted. But anyway, between this and Yoongi's mixtape subject, it really gives a bleak view of what the boys and probably lots of other idols go through in general but don't have the platform/freedom to voice it out.