goshipgurl (goshipgurl) wrote in omonatheydidnt,

Sunny writes about 2017 and coping with Jonghyun's death

“It’s been a long time, right? Thanks to all of the people who sincerely worried about me and comforted me, I’ve gotten much better. So many things happened in 2017, and the year is soon coming to an end. Looking back, there are happy memories that still fill me with joy to this day, there are some memories that hurt me so much that I don’t want to face them, and there are some memories that have now faded and don’t affect me anymore. I guess that’s life.

I’m with my family right now. I have always felt grateful for all of the people around me who gave me great comfort, love, and happiness, giving me the strength to conquer each day. But I’m also so happy to have the opportunity to spend the end of the year with my whole family for the first time since I began working, and I have been learning to accept and heal my big and small wounds in the warmth of my family’s embrace. I’m taking care of myself, something I haven’t done in a long time. Thanks to the time I spent with my family these past few days, I have come to realize that no matter how sad and hurt we are, as long as we don’t lose the hope of being happy and joyful, we will be able to gain the strength to live through each other’s love. The bigger the pain, the stronger I will have become if I am able to overcome it. We are not alone in this world.

Of course, there are some things that we can only do by ourselves. But I hope that if there’s somebody out there who is distressed and grieving.. I hope they don’t think they are alone and aren’t in pain because of thoughts like that. I, too, have a bad habit of holding my pain in and pushing everyone around me away, but I will try to take care of myself better from now on.

I wonder what everyone who has given me more love than I deserve is doing right now as the year comes to an end. I hope you are not hurting because of past pains, and I hope you are able to find peace. No matter how everyone ends the year, I hope 2018 will be full of love and hope. With hopes that I will be able to spend the next year giving love instead of just receiving it, I will take care of my health and have a good mindset as I try to become a good person who spreads positivity to those around me. I hope everyone has a warm end of the year. Be happy~”

sources: 515sunnyday insta, translation by soompi
Tags: jonghyun, social media, sunny
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