11:29 pm - 03/11/2018

dear cloud's nine dedicates performance to close friend jonghyun on king of masked singer



MBC’s “King of Masked Singer” revealed the identity of “Vocal chords that never shake, Matrix” to be a talented vocalist who dedicated her performance to her close friend, SHINee’s Jonghyun.

The episode of “King of Masked Singer” that aired on March 11 had four challengers battle it out to see who would battle against the reigning champion. In the third round, “Vocal chords that never shake, Matrix” performed Lee Juck’s “With You” while “Hit me as you pass, Drum man” sang Lim Jae Bum’s “Because of Love.”


Although both singers wowed, “Drum man” ended up moving on to the final round. “Matrix” took off her mask to reveal that it was none other than Dear Cloud’s Nine9.

Throughout her appearance, the celebrity panel had been split on whether “Matrix” was a man or a woman, and Nine9 laughed as she said, “Because I have short hair, a lot of people get confused about my gender. I was curious to know what people would say from just hearing my voice from behind a mask,” and “I was moved by the praise I received that it sounded like my voice and heart had become one. It made me think that I made the right choice to start singing.”

Dear-Cloud-Nine9

Nine9 also revealed that she had a special reason for appearing on the show. She stated, “Last year, a friend I loved dearly left this world.” Nine9 and SHINee’s Jonghyun were close friends, and she was the person Jonghyun had trusted with his final letter. Nine9 continued to state, “After that happened, my life felt meaningless and I still haven’t returned to my regular life,” and “I really needed to stand on stage because I have never felt more alive than when I am singing.”

She concluded with, “I was happy to have been able to express myself through music with just my voice because this show requires me to wear a mask.” Nine9 shed tears as the panel shared comforting words with her.

In her final interview, Nine9 said, “That friend used to ask me to sing his songs wherever I went,” and “I haven’t been able to do that yet because I don’t think I have the courage to. But when the day comes when I can stand on stage and sing his songs, I think I’ll finally be able to send him off properly.”



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source(s): @onewsweetvoice - soompi - @teamshineebr

sadly there isn't a good upload of her performance yet but ... yeah. nine is a great person and amazing performer so if you haven't checked out dear cloud you should go for it. i didn't even bother trying to go with some big reveal because what's the point lol
fritterish 12th-Mar-2018 07:25 am (UTC)
There’s never a time when I go to a Jjong post that I don’t cry. I don’t know if it will always feel this way, but more and more I realize how deep an impact he had in my life.

So I can’t imagine how overwhelming this must feel to his loved ones. I just wish them all the best.
yoonjeonghan 12th-Mar-2018 11:06 am (UTC)
There are some of her performances on YouTube (i’ll link when I get to my computer).

I watched her reveal and teared up immediately when the mood of the interview changed and they started playing the instrumental to Breathe. Even without knowing much Korean, it was easy to understand what she was saying.

She gave some great performances, I’m happy she got to do this.
sra_interesante 12th-Mar-2018 12:01 pm (UTC)
awww Nine i really hope someday you (& all jjong friends) can heal and sing his songs again

for me its like iu lyrics say:

I want to believe that you left
For a faraway place where no one bothers you
You can smile now, everything is okay

The merry nonsense that you sang about
Whenever I feel sad I will sing that song of yours

sayufied 12th-Mar-2018 11:56 pm (UTC)
thats so beautiful, which song is it?
ashdevilrun23 12th-Mar-2018 12:11 pm (UTC)
This was a good perf he was so loved :(
I pre-ordered his album and it finally came 2 days ago but I hadn't been able to open it till yesterday :(( now it really feels like it's over.. idk how to cope
star_riku 12th-Mar-2018 02:23 pm (UTC)
Although reading these types of posts makes me sad, it makes me feel better knowing I'm not the only one still having a hard time. I hope it becomes easier for Nine.

I thought that I was okay and was honestly pretty shocked at how quick my mourning period seemed to pass....surprise surprise, within the past week or so I've hit another "low". I spontaneously starting crying in the shower at one point after not one shinee song, not two, but three shinee songs in (???). I don't really understand how any of this works, emotionally.

Anyways, I think I've decided on a Jonghyun tribute tattoo (it'll be my first!) but I'm a little embarrassed to talk to anyone about it outside my best friends. I don't think the people around me really understand how much Jonghyun means to me :/.

byeolbyeol 12th-Mar-2018 06:01 pm (UTC)
the highs and lows are pretty back and forth for me too, and also for a lot of other friends that i have who're either shawols or who felt a strong connection with jonghyun. example: i don't cry as much as i did in the first month after but i still get at least emotional or angry for some reason every day. sometimes i'll feel like i'm doing better but then i'll get thrown back to square one and feel as bad as i did the first day. time feels like it's gone by fast but it really hasn't been that long and i think the constant cycle of new information or content involving him is making it harder. like: by the time people had settled down from the release of his album the domes were happening, and by the time those had finished we had confirmed of shinee's best of album in japan and their swc5 dvd. now we're waiting on jonghyun's birthday and the anniversary, so. :l

i feel you on the tattoo though. i have an idea for something that i want to get. i won't be able to until later this year (because $$$$) but i'm afraid of saying why i've decided on getting it. my family knows about my being a fan of shinee and also that jonghyun passed away and they'd judge me pretty hardcore if they knew about me wanting to get a tattoo for him lol

Edited at 2018-03-12 06:03 pm (UTC)
thebloomroom 12th-Mar-2018 06:28 pm (UTC)
I've been having such a hard time. One of my IRL friends passed last week (she was sick for awhile) and I thought I had gotten out of whatever mess Jonghyun's death triggered for me and now i'm starting this shit all over again. I don't even want to watch this, the write up alone is making me cry, but I am so sorry for her.
honeyfunnybunny 12th-Mar-2018 07:13 pm (UTC)
We’ve never spoken before, but my grandfather passed away a few days before Jonghyun.. and I just wanted to reach out and let you know that my private messages are open if you want someone to listen, and that I know what you’re going through. You’re not alone. If you’re not ready to watch or can’t, that’s completely fine. Look out for yourself and take care, we’re here for you too. I won’t lie to you and promise that things will get easier, but I’ll tell you one thing - one day you’re gonna reach a stage where you’ll understand all of these feelings that you’re carrying when you’ve lost someone, and that you’re gonna be able to accept and learn to love this new you, even if you’re don’t feel whole, you’ll eventually learn to love the sharp jagged edges too. A week sounds like a very short time, so please take care of yourself and do whatever you need to do.

I found this link very helpful when I was at my lowest:
https://griefwatch.com/self-care

honeyfunnybunny 12th-Mar-2018 07:22 pm (UTC)
I think of him every day.
Ngl this made me cry, I hope she won’t be hard on herself for the things she doesn’t have the courage to do.. what she did on the masked singer was incredibly brave and I hope she’s proud of herself for going up there to perform either way.

And if you managed to read this far, I’d just like you to know that I’m happy that you’re here. I’m so proud of you, whoever you are. I hope you’re doing well, and if you aren’t, that’s completely fine too. I hope you know how precious you are.
lightframes 12th-Mar-2018 11:00 pm (UTC)
<3
vintage_boom 12th-Mar-2018 07:43 pm (UTC)
i'm glad she had the chance to just get on stage and sing without burden behind the mask. im sure that was really important for her right now. she sung beautifully. i feel for her.

I put up the poster from the last comeback and keep the album/pcs on display. it's comforting for me in a way i never anticipated and a reminder to keep going. bought the album thinking i'd probably never open it or listen to it more than once but i find myself listening to at least a song or two a day.

his passing, partnered with how my grandmother passed the month before, brought up a lot of thoughts and feelings about choices we make in our lives. it's rattled some deeply buried things I never really thought i'd confront.
hibaalhadid 12th-Mar-2018 10:13 pm (UTC)
I thought I won't tear or cry after all this time, but I teared up a lot, even though I was a casual fan, still not over his death, many celebrities have passed away, even some relatives also passed away, but this one was the most painful to me
lightframes 12th-Mar-2018 11:00 pm (UTC)
That was really sweet. I'm glad she was able to express herself, even though it's still really painful for her.

*sigh* They had a really great friendship. People are going to be hurt for a long time. And there's nothing that can be done.
sayufied 13th-Mar-2018 12:11 am (UTC)
this was so hard to watch, she's honestly so brave, and i hope we can hear his songs in her voice whenever she's ready...

just like everyone here, im still finding it hard to believe it...
i find myself crying every now and then, like i was on the tube a couple of days ago. i had a long day, and his song end of the day came on and i just couldnt control myself, i started sobbing on the train..
and it keeps happening, when scrolling through my music in public, i cant listen to his music in public cos i guarantee you 100% ill end up crying...

i also havent had the chance to talk about it to anyone, and honestly its kinda hard grieving on your own.
i really cant believe it, i feel like im still in a haze... but im taking this grieving process as slow as possible.
im torn between if i stop grieving will i forget (?) him and just move or getting over his passing and appreciating his work as someone more than beloved artist that passed, idk if im making sense, but i struggled with the same thoughts when my dad passes away, where i thought if i moved on im leaving him behind but if wallowed im hurting myself and his memory...
idk ill shut up lmao..

also deciding on a tribute tattoo hehe

Edited at 2018-03-13 12:12 am (UTC)
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