10:14 pm - 08/09/2018

SHINee - From Now On 2018 Concert Highlights

Why So Serious?




Replay (have tissues ready tbh)

There are more on the playlist the original uploader made but you may need a VPN to watch them.

source: Jinnie Đỗ 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5

I feel like everyone who wanted to watch these may have already but just in case. You could tell they were performing with something to prove to themselves in a lot of these. Thought a post might be nice since SHINee's comeback ended but we didn't really have many posts about EP 3, which is understandable. How are all the shawols holding up?
graffiti__ 10th-Aug-2018 03:46 am (UTC)
T__T i feel like these videos set my heart on fire
jillyjellly 10th-Aug-2018 04:41 am (UTC)
i saw them in osaka. it was hard for everyone but they did really well.

last week a video of kiss kiss kiss from their recent fan event popped up on my youtube subscriptions. i watched it but felt overwhelmingly sad for the next couple days. i really miss jonghyun. i hope he's having a good time wherever he is... <3
lightframes 10th-Aug-2018 05:11 am (UTC)
I am okay. More of their music is making me sad lately but I'm hoping it's just temporary.

How are you doing?
vintage_boom 10th-Aug-2018 04:17 pm (UTC)
aw I hope it's just a temporary thing for you. <3

I'm ok! IG and youtube have been recommending me a lot of shinee ot5 content lately so I thought I'd do a kind of check in.
lightframes 11th-Aug-2018 12:49 am (UTC)
Thanks for checking in. <3
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vintage_boom 10th-Aug-2018 08:20 pm (UTC)
love it's ok that you're doing ok and sharing that! you don't have to justify it at all. you're not coming across brash or insensitive with what you said. We are lucky to have him <3
lightframes 10th-Aug-2018 10:27 pm (UTC)
I really feel this comment because it's so true!

Sorry about your accident.
volume1995 10th-Aug-2018 11:02 am (UTC)
It helped a lot that EP1 and 2 were upbeat cause thats what shinee always meant to me, so the last couple of months have been rather easy on me. It still kind of hurts when old Shinee songs come up. especially his solo songs. Hoping he's doing fine out there! Miss him lots
star_riku 10th-Aug-2018 12:27 pm (UTC)
TW: Mention of Crisis Hotline (idk if it should be tagged or not, but just in case...)

I'm doing alright. I keep teetering between feeling okay and feeling a bit guilty about it and feeling sad but feeling like it's not really my place because I was able to power through extreme sadness relatively quickly. I also get brief moments of anger thinking about how I reached out to a crisis hotline when Jonghyun passed, and their advice was essentially to find other interests.

I watched these videos earlier, I cried but also felt pretty proud. I also felt kind of...uncomfortable, like by watching I was consuming their grief process by watching. As for this past promotion cycle, I've had a lot of fun. The music is good, we've got a lot of exposure of the boys, and I really admire how they've moved more towards finding happiness. I really think Jonghyun would be proud.

Other than that, I've put in leave already for the 1 year point, I don't want to go to work on that day. Also I got my memorial tattoo! I love it– it's something that uses symbolism that is important to me as an individual while also serving as a tribute to Jonghyun :)

How are you OP?
vintage_boom 10th-Aug-2018 04:24 pm (UTC)
thats so incredibly unempathetic of that worker. I'm sorry. It's a difficult loss to articulate when an artist you really admire dies like this and people can't really contextualize it unless they've felt a similar loss and sadly, that's becoming more common an experience it seems.

It's a lot to come to terms with I feel you. Why So Serious is actually the perf where I felt the most torn about watching it, you could really see some of the anger they were holding during that one. They shouldn't have had to do those concerts but I'm proud of them for handling it with such grace and vulnerability. Idk if I could do the same tbh.

I'm doing ok. I think watching them through EP 1 and 2 promo cycle was really helpful. Knowing they've kind of solidified their intentions for the future of shinee and their relationship made me feel a bit better. I dipped during EP 3 and these Japanese promos tbh it was just a lot with the ballads but I find myself listening to Lock You Down a lot which wasn't expecting!
lightframes 10th-Aug-2018 10:28 pm (UTC)
I also felt kind of...uncomfortable, like by watching I was consuming their grief process by watching.

How I feel and why it's hard to watch.
byeolbyeol 10th-Aug-2018 04:17 pm (UTC)
i'm doing better - as in: not crying constantly but still on a basis that's probably more regular than normal, so who knows. i haven't watched any of the performances from this dvd and i don't think i ever will, honestly. i'm proud of them for being able to do the concert, but it's too raw for me. otherwise, i'm just... yeah. i still haven't listened to all of tsol and i don't really have the motivation to - which isn't surprising considering it's even hard for me to work up motivation to listen to shinee in general lately. but a lot of people i know feel the same way, so.

beyond that, it's a day by day thing. i can't really deal with fandom anymore because there's still a lot of fighting within it, and misunderstandings constantly, plus it's not really "safe" to be a shawol anymore, imo. especially if you're a blinger, you can't really go more than two days without having someone say or do something really hurtful or disrespectful toward jonghyun and his memory so it's all pretty tiring. but this is just my personal experience - as someone who's been a fan for over seven years and put a lot of themselves into supporting jonghyun specifically (through my blog for him) for almost four of those years.
vintage_boom 10th-Aug-2018 04:30 pm (UTC)
I've felt similarly about fandom stuff regarding shinee too lately. Had to unfollow or mute a lot of things I didn't think I would need to. It sucks and like another layer of loss you have to navigate.
byeolbyeol 10th-Aug-2018 05:19 pm (UTC)
yeah. there was someone (who tried to say they were a shawol) making fun of people who use the moon app as a way to comfort themselves / feel closer to jonghyun on twitter earlier today - which was bullshit. that and a lot of people have just phased themselves out of fandom in general because they don't feel like they can be open about their emotions or grief anymore. it's sad but i expected it sooner or later. i don't know how it'll pan out in the coming months, especially with the (years long) hiatus coming up... very, very soon.
kyokomurasaki 10th-Aug-2018 06:14 pm (UTC)
I just wanted to say I appreciate your blog and others like Jonghyun on This Day continuing to post pictures and things of him; I just think it's a nice way to remember.
byeolbyeol 10th-Aug-2018 08:25 pm (UTC)
ah. it's no problem. <3 honestly, it's kind of a struggle updating it at times. it can get emotionally compromising but i stick to a queue that runs for usually a month or two every time so it's all good lol
vintage_boom 10th-Aug-2018 06:18 pm (UTC)
that's awful that people were making fun of it. It's like when the aqua lens flare popped up and people were making fun of those who took comfort in seeing it, fuck even taemin tagged jonghyun and shinee in pics where it showed up. if it helps people and isn't hurting anyone else (or themselves) just zip it. I think I spent like 2 days trying to explain that to someone on a few posts on twitter and then gave up. -___- people are such dicks.
byeolbyeol 10th-Aug-2018 08:26 pm (UTC)
the lack of empathy is staggering sometimes tbh
lightframes 10th-Aug-2018 10:30 pm (UTC)
Damn, we really can't do anything...
jinkiestabi 10th-Aug-2018 05:19 pm (UTC)
I’m embarrassed, nothing was here, lol

Edited at 2018-08-11 03:21 am (UTC)
kyokomurasaki 10th-Aug-2018 06:11 pm (UTC)
I've really been enjoying the album and it was actually quit a joyful listen for the most part, but there still are times when I listen and think "oh, Jonghyun's part would have been here." I'm proud of the members and I really hope they're doing ok. It's still bittersweet but I actually get a lot of happiness from Poet | Artist, but Shinee's old songs can get emotional to listen to sometimes. Luckily I've been able to avoid most of the fandom drama since I don't really look at stan twitter/tumblr much anymore.
dull_and_wicked 10th-Aug-2018 07:45 pm (UTC)
i feel like i'm definitely in a better place than i was a few months ago, but i couldn't handle any of the EP3 promo. i put off watching our page for a long time and when i finally did, it fit me pretty hard so i kind of avoided that part of tsol

one weird byproduct of all of this that i'm finding myself more detached from the groups other than shinee that i used to follow really closely. idk it's hard to react so enthusiastically and to be invested in fandom things that seem trivial now? i found myself getting irritated by a lot things so i've pretty much checked out across the board
ursulavosyem 10th-Aug-2018 07:55 pm (UTC)
I haven't seen these yet, thank you for posting, OP. I still miss him. Replay was the hardest one to watch. I'm so proud of SHINee for holding strong through this past year, and I'm glad I got to see them enjoying themselves while promoting.

Sometimes I find myself understanding what Jonghyun must have been thinking, and at other times I'm just so angry with him. I want to get to the point where thinking of him just brings nice memories.
mewaqua1 12th-Aug-2018 03:42 pm (UTC)
i saw them in osaka and it was really emotional but it did help me personally in that moment, to share the pain with other shawols and shinee and remember him together as i can't really do that in my daily life (as literally nobody irl understands my love for shinee as music group and individuals) however watching the dvd 2 weeks ago with my shawol bestie from across the country was hard...we both choked up again despite already knowing what's coming etc...the intensity of the pain/loss is less for me but became more like a lingering soft pain always there in your heart, like something you are always aware of and i miss him more and more tbh...

illusions_chan 12th-Aug-2018 04:44 pm (UTC)
I'm so proud of them. They worked so hard on this, but I can't help but cry through all of the performances.

Side note: Onew looks so much better with dark hair. Like seriously, I forgot that he was damn cute.
reader17 22nd-Aug-2018 12:58 am (UTC)
I'm so proud of them, and I am happy that they are continuing. I just started to recently listen to Shinee songs again, I couldn't do it for awhile. When I watch the older MV I smile with tears in my eyes, smile because I love Shinee and they have special place in my heart, and then tears knowing Jonghyun is gone and how good he was, and how much he is missed. Thank you for the warning about Reply!
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