It seems like recently my personality has gotten softer. When I was younger, I was so obsessed with hip-hop that I had a tendency to be rebellious, but I’m starting to realize that that’s not all good. These days I’m making an effort not to become lazy.
I’m listening to a lot of classical music these days. I want to listen to new music and try combining styles. Usually, I enjoy listening to jazz and taking time to think. Since I lead somewhat of a stimulating lifestyle, I make time to meditate and reflect. Recently I’ve been having some insomnia, so I have a light glass of wine and try to fall asleep while listening to music. It feels like all my biological rhythms have been broken since filming the movie. My endurance is floored. But still, I don’t take any herbal medicines so I can save all that for when I really need it later in life. ^^
I think I tend to be a shy person. That’s why I have a hard time getting to know new people and I can’t make eye-contact. So I’m reluctant to meet people. It may be that I’m saving up all my energy so that I can let it all loose in front of the camera. Honestly I don’t have many celebrity friends. I was always working, and I have the other Big Bang members. We’re always just in the waiting room having fun amongst ourselves.
The members are my family. Since I’m the oldest I never picked favorites from the beginning. I thought that because I’m the oldest, I should watch over them from the sidelines and not burden them. My brothers, who followed such a spoiled older brother, are really innocent and good.
Now it’s an important time, when Big Bang’s album will be released. I’m planning on having a barbecue party with the members after we finish our jacket photo shoot today (the 16th). We should grill vegetables and all kinds of meat. For awhile we’ve been talking about personal things, but today we should talk about business. Now it’s time to get back together.
TRANS: seungie @ tumblr
'after we finish our jacket photo shoot today' akglskdakgdha :DD